December 15, 2014

In approximately 16 days, we will be welcoming 2015. If the new year is anything like 2014, I am going to need a new seat belt, because the one I'm wearing now is just about worn out! Nowadays, I am focusing on the present moment, and it is no easy process. It's the dedication, the will, making a choice and abiding by it, to focus in and on the "now." I have had some challenges this year. Back in July, I was guided and inspired to live in silence. It was hell for a few weeks.Some days, I wanted to fucking scream, to drown out all that silence. For the first time in my life, I came face to face, or ear to ear, with a constant stream of judgments, criticisms, complaints, blame. Unbelievable. I knew something would give, as I made the decision that if I am going to live in silence, I'm not sharing it with those kinds of thoughts! So there was nothing to do but to deal with them. Not engage them, but to look at them and declare them "false."

2.  In August, I began consistently practicing restorative yoga as soon as I awakened. Then I added a morning meditation and an evening meditation to my day. I became aware of some channeled transmissions in September that assisted me in understanding how to eliminate this tension and separation between the right and left brain, between the feminine and masculine energy. The silence of course eased the blasts of energy from the left/masculine so that the feminine or right side could be heard. Now I am asking for a balancing and recalibration of the feminine and masculine energy of all of my bodies: physical, emotional and mental, since the feminine and masculine polarity are permeating all the bodies.

3.  Towards the end of September, I became aware of the need to give up dairy products. I don't know if it's the chemicals in dairy, or what. All I know is that for about 3 weeks, I was so congested and felt so out of sorts in my body, that it really didn't matter and still doesn't what the cause might be. I do take in about a fourth of a cup of dairy now, every week, sometimes, and I am fine. I no longer take the lactaid tablets, and I feel much better. I sleep better. I rarely have gas and indigestion. I began drinking cucumber and alfalfa juice, with a little honey and lime, which is a shift from having a small can of coca-cola in the mornings. I didn't have it everyday, but one or two days a week, but it wasn't the best way to start my day. Next is gluten. I'm not going to totally eliminate it, but I will move towards drastically reducing it. I love bread and pasta, and even with a regular exercise routine, they can pack on the pounds, and make me feel groggy.

4.  Make no mistake about it. When the belief system shifts, everything else must shift and recalibrate to the frequency of the new beliefs. When old beliefs go, then there is the old in the physical and emotional body that will naturally make its exit. Until those shifts and recalibrations are complete, there is some discomfort. But now I know that discomfort signals the coming of an expanded state and a physical reality to reflect it. Life is good and it's

getting better and better.

So for 2015, it's the balancing and recalibration of all of my bodies, and I expand in and with silence and meditation.

Verizon and the Present Moment

I am entering my 3rd month of living the majority of my days in silence. I thought it would get easier, but today I had a really tough day.I would probably call it a set-back. But one of the things that I know is that set-backs actually propel me forward. To escape the mess, I was going to go out and have dinner, even though I have food in frig to cook, because I couldn't bear one more minute alone with myself.  Knowing that I was trying to escape is what kept me inside, cooking and reflecting on how "I" threw myself off center. I got myself worked up and in a tissy. Moved right out of the present moment to get annoyed and down right pissed off at Verizon. I have been trying to pay my bill, on line, for the past 5 days, and every time I try to log in, the "connection" times-out because Verizon's server is taking too long to respond. On Saturday, I chatted online with a customer rep. who told me my problem was that I hadn't migrated my account over to the new system. After spending 30 minutes on chat with her, trying to migrate my account over, I am told that my account has already been migrated. I had sense enough that day to call it quits after that revelation and try again another day. So today was that day. 57 minutes on the telephone 2 disconnects, 4 service representatives, 2 mis-connects (I was connected to Verizon in California, when I should have been connected to Verizon in Pennsylvania, Residential service when it should have been Business). As soon as I am ready to give the last service rep my payment information, call disconnected. Now I am not only uptight, I'm pissed to the Nth degree. Of all people, I should know what workplaces are like, especially Verizon, whose workers have been complaining about how working for Verizon has gone from pleasant to a virtual hell. But I know this, and I know that my experience had the potential to drive me up the f#@king wall, i.e., out of silence and out the door. I didn't do it.

Instead, I prepared kale with garlic, onions and pasta. I sat myself down and quietly took my meal. When I finished, and as I took my plate to the sink, I remembered a line from A Course in Miracles, that says something like, "you are not really angry for the reasons you think. It's far deeper than this." In other words, I was simply using Verizon as a punching bag. And I had to come to terms with what I was really pissed about, and it wasn't pleasant because, as always, I was angry with my Self. Why?

Because this "living in the present moment" ain't fucking easy, and the returns on the work is just not what I expected. So what did I expect? I expected to make up my mind that I wanted to do this and for it to happen instantaneously. In other words, I wanted time suspended. Sometimes I have a hard time coming to terms with having chosen this experience, "spirit in form." Which brings me to the reason why I made the decision to stay in, and allow this experience to move through me: I want to be done with the separation. Now.  I don't want it lurking around some dark corner, lying in wait to have its way with me. So, in short, I appreciate the four representatives at Verizon for holding me on the line for 57 minutes and allowing all of this to come to the surface.

57 minutes is not long at all to make progress that would have otherwise taken one hundred years. I consider that a high yield. And I can do it again. All I need do is to stay "connected."

Time Acceleration II - Just another photo from the back yard

This is a Ugandan key hole garden. The center (with the basket on top) is where I put all my veggie scraps, and I water from the center too. This is the first year I have tried this type of garden. I've got baby bok choy, dill, rutabegas, tarragon, chives and a little rosemary growing in there too. I bought basil and cilantro from Lowe's and of course, it's finished. I will follow my daughter's lead and grow both from seed next year.All that shit in the right upper hand corner is weeds. Maybe the next time I blog, it will be cleaned out. Either way, I'm going to take a before and after photo. Those are always so cool.

Time Acceleration

Last night I had to get my items for August' ezine in for editing. I can't begin to tell you how time is flying by. It seems as if I just gathered all the information for the July edition. I remind myself all the time about the "collapse of time" that is actually occurring. Sometimes I like it, and at other times I feel like things are going way too fast for me to actually enjoy them. What's even more alarming is that I know that I have control over my time now. Managing and manipulating energy is real new to me, and I guess I haven't gotten the hang of it yet. I just finished making my son a quilt for his 30th birthday. Everybody gets something handmade for their 30th birthday. Well, not everybody. Just my children.

We had the baby shower for my 9th grandchild last weekend too. It seems like that came and went at lightening speed. I have a list of things to do in my house and while I can see everything in completion, I just don't know if it will all happen this summer. I started in the kitchen today, reserving a week for each room, still having to attend to my gardens, the one in front and the one in the back. And of course I have all the writing that I do: the workplace blog, the ezine, and I am back to working on the Sessions in Shifting, after having a serious block that I was starting to get a little concerned about. Then I realized that they needed some adjustments to compensate for all the information that I have been receiving in the past 2 months. Revelation is just pouring through me.

The decision to live in silence has helped tremendously. I was so accustomed to getting up in the morning and turning my music on, and then turning on the spanish television channel for listening practice. Now when I awaken I start my meditation of "acceptance" and go straight to restorative yoga for 20-30 minutes. Directing the energy the first thing in the morning makes a big difference in how my day unfolds. I was going a bit nuts there for a while, at least the first week of silence because all of my thoughts seem to be coming through on a bull horn. After reading a passage out of ACOL, I realized that this is natural. So now when some unpleasant thought comes up, I can smile, even laugh knowing that it's like shit rising to top to be released.

Here are some photos of my garden, the on in the back.The green pot is gladiolas and some wild flowers that are supposed to attract bumble bees; on the bottom, about center is purple and green okra. I wasn't here last year when it was ready, but I will be this year. To let left of the okra is mellon. I planted too many, I think, and what's worse is
that I haven't seen one mellon. If I don't get any

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I am planting something else next year. My
fruit plants don't seen to fare as well as my veggies. Anyway, there are jalapenos and some
other pepper that is coming along next to the
okra. In the plot to the right of the green pot are
broccoli, turnips, and some other peppers. To the right of them are green,yellow and purple string beans and russian brown cucumbers. They are amazing. And of course to the right is my laundry.




Here are some other photos:Below are the tomato plants. They're huge, but I planted some orange grape tomatoes, and they are absolutely delicious. I just have to figure out how I can cook with them. In that green pot is the vicious mint. I had to take that stuff out of the ground, because it takes over everything. I am still pulling mint out of the front yard.

I would recommend A Course in Miracles to anyone who is interested in coming to an awareness about the belief in separation, and discovering the impact that this belief system has had on the mind and on the world. I would not, however, recommend that anyone conclude that ACIM is all there is to deprogramming or unlearning the belief in separation. All that ACIM does is free the mind from the ego, so that it is able to rejoin the heart, so that one can begin to "remember" the wholeness that we are. Heart and mind functioning in unity and creating in relationship with the Source of all That Is, All that We are.

http://www.amazon.com/Course-Miracles-Foundation-Inner-Peace/dp/1883360269/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1400111021&sr=8-1&keywords=A+Course+in+Miracles

And to become aware of functioning in unity and relationship, I would recommend A Course of Love trilogy, which includes ACOL, The Treatises, and The Dialogues.

http://www.amazon.com/A-Course-Love-Mari-Perron/dp/1456580310/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1400111132&sr=8-1&keywords=A+Course+of+Love

I spent approximately 15 years in ACIM. But that is because I was resistant to the teachings. There is no reason, as far as I am concerned, why anyone who is committed and willing to return to who they truly are, to stay in ACIM for such a long time.

It is from ACOL that I received the awareness of why I am here. I like to say that ACIM saved my life, and ACOL trilogy taught me what to do with it.

So be it. And so it is.

The Gift of Channeling

We have all been given the gift of channeling; however, we do have a choice about what we channel. We have access to two sources of information: the belief system of separation and the Unified Field of Consciousness, what some of us call God, Goddess or All that Is, the Universe, etc. Information channeled from the belief in separation is characterized by fear, judgment, lack, limitation and scarcity. The messages affirm that forces and conditions outside of ourselves are responsible for our  life's circumstances: economics, politics, genes, history, religion, etc. 95% of the information that guides our life experience comes from this source.  Then there is the Unified Field of Consciousness or All that Is. For thousands of years, we have believed that we are separate from the Universe, that "All That Is" is a being who sits in a far off place, taking notes and passing judgment. Now there is a growing awareness that human beings are God and it is the power of thought that connects us to It. The information from this Source reflects the unlimited potential of every human being on the planet. This information affirms the unlimited power that we have to create a reality on earth that supports and promotes the well-being of all life on the planet, and the knowledge to do so is available and can be transmitted from the Field.  These messages are characterized by ideas of love and well-being that do not and cannot co-exist with the messages that are channeled from the belief in separation.  The gift of channeling has been given to all as we are all aspects of All That Is;  however, because we are human beings, we have the freedom to choose which messages we want to channel: those from the All That Is or those from the belief in separation. The overwhelming decision to channel the belief in separation is reflected on the earth at this time. What we are beginning to observe more of is an unprecedented shift in our consciousness,  where more of us are making the choice to channel information from All That Is.